The time passes on

I am fighting a sad feeling. I've been fine but my friend is leaving to work on a different account and it just hit me how much I want to also. It is tough to do it because you almost have to know someone to switch, she did. It just fell in to place. I'm tired of working 2 jobs, it's been 2.5 years. And getting my internship is not going to happen until I can get a different second job to get more experience but I don't even like my main job so it can be depressing. I had no vacations and I won't have one for a long time.

Yesterday at Panera 1 person quit and 1 called in. So we were 2 short. So another girl came in so it was a little better but then the girl that was suppose to close cafe, her dad had given her like 3 painkillers of some unperscribed sort and she was all drugged up and then he came in like a lunatice demanding that she go home and if she hurt herself there that he would sue. Our manager kindly told him that he would not be able to since he gave her an unperscribed painkiller. So she left. So I had to close crispani and cafe. So I would ring people in and if they got one I had to go back and make it. Run all around trying to get everything done. It was not an amusing night.
Normally I would turn to food as a comfort but I don't do that anymore so it is hard to find something to take it's place.
Saturday was good. I went to ww and then went grocery shopping. It was my day to eat more and I wanted cheese. During the week I barely have any. I bought cheese sticks and stuff to make the chili cheese dip, but I only had 2 cheese sticks and I didn't make the other thing. Then I cleaned and watched MSU get their asses kicked for the last time this season and then went to my friends to watch the Ohio st./UofM game. It is hard for me to cheer for UofM because we are so programmed to dislike them. I didn't really cheer for either. It was just good football. I had some drinks but I was so tired I fell asleep. I went home at like 11.

Keep on truckin all the way

There is always a certain amount of shame that comes with rejection but I think that I have good perspective about not getting the internship I applied for. I know that it would have been a huge financial burden at this time and maybe when we sell the house and I have more options of living at home or in a cheaper place then it will be my time to do it. I have to get some experience in a hospital setting, ya know with all my free time. I looked in to the one at Henry Ford and in the application they want at least 40 hours, which isn't too much. It can be volunteer also in a hospital setting. Then they want a letter of recommendation from a teacher in one of my dietetics class. Um I took those so long ago at MSU and at Madonna I only had a couple and I only still talk to the director, who is already writing me one.

Anyways, last weekend was good, besides working, I had Saturday off and I cleaned my bedroom, went shopping, ate Jet's, watched football and went to the bar. It was fun. This weekend is the big game and I'll be watching the #1 against #2. Then Thanksgiving, so I will have a short week. I'm looking forward to it, except the eating part. It will be a challenge for that. Well I gotta get going.

Not a match

I did not get the internship.

Put it down

I know it's kind of late to post from last weekend but we had fun. We didn't go to E.L. until around 1 and we met Danielle, Anna, Darcy and Dave at the Wing place so we could all ride together. Jackie's cousin came too. It was not up to tailgate par, we didn't even bring the grill or canopy but we had wings :) And liquor. Since it was already like 1:30 we thought we had to 'catch up' to them because they had drinks at Danielle's. Probably not the best idea. Jackie drank the rest of her margaritas and I finished over 1/2 a bottle of captains. We were drinking up until we walked in to the stadium. We were hammered. It was great fun though and we took a lot of pictures. Too bad our loud cheering couldn't get us a win. We went back to Danielle's and on the way they dropped me and Marc off to get some vodka. I don't really remember why we went to get that. We ordered Jet's and that is my favorite and so I pigged out, not a good idea since like 2 hours later I puked it all up. I don't think it was from the drinking, I think 4 pieces were just wayy to many. Sunday sucked, I was so tired and I had to work.

This week has gone kind of fast. I think I am veto-ing tomorrows game and staying at home for once. Then I'm suppose to go out for my friends birthday tomorrow night. Panera has gotten incredibly bad. We haven't been getting out until 11 and every night we just have a bad crew. We'll have like 2 good people and the rest bad. So then the good people get shafted and are working their asses off. It is not fair. I think the good will start quitting soon. It's not that I want to but I can't stand it.
I am definately antsy to get out of here today. I don't feel like doing tickets anymore!!!

"It will be a going away party"

John L.'s words on if they get to a bowl game this year after being fired yesterday. He will finish out the season. We are happy although it is the same thing every time, we get a new coach, they suck, we get all annoyed...

We had Beckie's surprise party last night. She was surprised and concerned that we weren't going to watch Top Chef. We made cheesesticks and pretzels filled with cheese and had mexicali dip. YUM. I didn't have any of the cheesy stuff but I ate some mexicali with pretzels. We toasted with some champagne and no one ate any cake or ice cream! After I slaved over it, haha, just kidding it took me like 5 minutes to mix and 30 to bake. Then we all put a message on it. We decorated with black and purple balloons and streamers and random balloons all over the floor. I stayed up for the whole thing, that was amazing! So, it was a success. I'm glad almost everyone could make it.

This weekend we are going tailgating and maybe to the game. Ha, just kidding, we are going to the game too. It's Anna's last one for the year so we gotta go out with a bang. Not literally.

Gotta run, almost time to blow this popsicle stand. I don't know how to spell that, don't really care!